Filed under: Blackberry, Fashion, School | Tags: Blackberry, Fashion, School
Even though I’m a customer service representative who sits in a cubicle basically the entire time I’m at work, they’re still picky about what we wear. For example, were only allowed jeans on Fridays, Saturdays and Sundays. Mind you, I have Fridays and Sundays off, so I can only wear jeans once a week. Good thing I’m obsessed with dresses anyway right?
I just bought three new dresses which I’m really excited about coming in. I’m tired of having to resort to sweatpants sometimes because I feel I’ve outworn my other dresses and things I can actually wear to work.
That’s two of the things I purchased. Another thing I purchased lately is a Blackberry Curve. I really needed a new phone and I was like whatever, heres $400 T-Mobile. Please, do not get me started on T-Mobile. But still, I needed a phone and I could not resist.
I would probably be flipping out at this point about the money I’ve been spending but I just found out yesterday that Financial Aid is giving me $2366 for school and I have Bright Futures already paying for my tuition so basically I get to pocket it (besides books but that will not cost 2 grand). But that money is going straight to savings C=.
There once was a little tree right at the intersection of 441 and Coral Bay Drive. Basically everyday on my drive home, if I was not lucky enough to catch the light (or maybe I was lucky when I did not catch the light) and I was the first person in the turning lane, I would see this beautiful little tree. It was there on so many random occasions; My ride home from lunch or my ride home at 3 a.m., probably to sleepy to actually be driving in the first place. It was always there and every timeI saw it, for some reason, I felt an emotion that I was not feeling before I pulled up to that red light. A feeling of happiness different from the happiness I usually feel. I’m not sure exactly what it was; Maybe the fact that a tree was growing out of the road, maybe the fact that it had gotten pretty tall and the amount time that must have taken. I would always wonder about how many people must cross this intersection daily and see the tree, but never harm it. Maybe that’s why I was happy to see it. Maybe it gave me a sense of hope for the world. I never pondered the tree longer then the period I was at the light but every time I was stopped at the light, it was the first thing on my mind.
The other day, I drove up to the red light, once again the first in line. I looked over pretty fast, remembering the little tree. I looked over and it was gone. I’m not even sure if I can accurately describe the feelings that came over me but I guess it was a feeling of loneliness mixed with the fact that I felt like I lost something I had grown attached to. Something I had faith in. I believe I had figured in my head that if it had already been there so long, whats stopping it from staying there? I just always expected it to be there.
However it was removed, I hope it was worth it. I’m sure to most it was just a stupid little plant but when your able to put that much emotion into something that little, its beautiful.
Here’s a picture of the spot where the tree was. I really wish I had gotten a picture of the tree but it never really occurred to me that it would be gone so soon.
Have you ever experienced this feeling?
